Abhiraj's pov

Why does her touch feel so livable, Why do her arms feel so safe, Why am I not able to run away from the thing that killed a part of me? I was never the one in anyone's life. I know everyone is there, I know they'll save me they'll be there for me. They have been there for me, but is it my fault that I never felt like I was anyone's priority? Since childhood my parents loved Ani, and they loved me too but it was always him, whenever I asked them 'Why do you love him more than me?' they said he had no one, you have your entire family. I'm not jealous of my brother, I love him and I know he needs it more than me but don't I deserve someone who will always put me as his/her first? I needed someone to hold me but I could not ask my family member because they'll get hurt. I need someone who will read my heart when words fall short. I trusted people only to get stabbed. Adi has always been there for me like a brother. He's my family. In these two years when everybody left, he was there standing with a smile and he was trying everything just to make me laugh. Why did she save me? Why did she put her life in danger because of me? Her words are still there in my mind. For the first time in my life, someone made me feel like that, like at that moment nothing mattered to her more than me. I don't know what is happening.

I came out of my thoughts and went to bed. I was staring at the walls and I don't know when I slept.

"Bhai wake up"

"Bhai"

"BHAI"

I opened my eyes and saw Ani, he's still in his gym clothes. I looked towards the clock it was 8:30.

"You're okay?" he asked and touched my forehead.

"You don't have a fever, why are you sleeping?" he asked with concern

"I don't know, I slept for 5 hours that's the longest I've slept in two years" I said with a fake smile.

"it's good, come fast for breakfast," he said and went.

I took a shower, and put on my black T-shirt and trousers because it's Saturday and Rathore ladies won't allow us to work on weekends. I went downstairs and everyone was already settled in their seat for breakfast.

"Good morning" I said and they smiled.

Bhabhi gave me my breakfast and coffee.

"Abhi, will you drop me at Mandir & then at Ashi's office.?" She asked.

" but it's Sunday Bhabhi" I looked at her confused.

"I know but the fashion week is coming so we need to work" she replied with a smile.

" Abhi We need to talk to you about something" Dadi said.

"Ji dadi boliye," I said glancing at her.

"Humne aapke liye ek ladki chuni hai sham ko dekhne jayenge sab," She said in her authoritative voice.

Everyone looked at me.

"But dadi, how can you do this, you decided to meet them without even asking me?" I said looking at her, my voice was rude but she did wrong.

"Because we know what your answer will be Abhi, stop running away from reality," Maa said calmly.

"give it a try Abhi, beta, not everyone is the same, you can't ignore things because of one incident, not every girl is the same" Papa said patting my shoulder.

"Yes, beta, if you won't like her we won't force you but meet her at least and we all will be there" Chachu said.

"I know chachu but It's not easy," I said looking at my plate.

"But we can try Abhi, I'll be there if you feel anything we'll walk out at that moment," Ansh bhai said.

"But.." I was saying and Maa stopped me by saying.

"She's Avishikta beta and you know her family already, I trust her" Maa said softly.

"Maa but..." I was saying but Dada ji interrupted me.

"Enough Abhi, stop behaving like this, we can't hold on to things because of your past, we did not tell you to go to that place that day," he said angrily.

I was shaken. How could he blame me for that?

"Dada ji calm down, he'll go" Ansh bhai said giving him water.

" I'm waiting in the garden bhabi," I said and walked towards the garden.

"Beta have your breakfast at least" Choti Maa said.

"I'm not hungry choti maa," I said and walked out.

I walked into the garden and sat on the bench. I cannot pull Avishikta into all this. Will I be able to love her? It is so hard for me to trust her. I don't even know her. She doesn't even know me. She'll get hurt and I don't want to her because of my past.

"Abhi" Bhabhi called me and sat beside me.

"What are you thinking?" she asked looking at me.

"I don't want to hurt her," I said looking at her.

She chuckled softly and ruffled my hair.

"My brother can't hurt anyone, that's a different thing that he goes on killing people almost every day" She looked at me with an evil smile.

"You knew?" I looked at her with wide eyes.

"You can't hide things from Naina Rathore" She flipped her hair.

"NAINA AVYANSH RATHORE" Bhai corrected her.

"When did you come?" she asked him.

"How can I eat breakfast without My Brother and wife?" He sat on the ground opposite to us.

"Same" Ani said and sat beside him.

"what same? She's not your wife" Bhai looked at him with a frown.

"Jal kukde, main mere bhai ki baat kar raha hoon, apki biwi apko mubarak," he said pulling his cheeks.

"Where is Princess, Bhabi?" Ani asked.

"She's sleeping, she couldn't sleep last night," Bhabi said.

"Abhi, Don't think too much, It'll be alright" Bhai said

"I don't know," I sighed

"boys, bye we need to go, it's getting late, Abhi, let's pluck some flowers," Bhabi said and I went behind her.

"This flower is so beautiful, see" She showed me a plant.

"Bhabhi, will you pluck the flower from the same plant, which is filled with thrones, from where you once got a deep cut?," I said looking at the plant.

"I surely will, Maybe it won't hurt again, maybe I won't get hurt this time" She said plucking the flower.

"but you never know right?" I said looking at her.

"You need to trust yourself for that, you need to pick the flower carefully without touching the thrones. The world is filled with thrones, Abhi, but if you let go of that flower just because it has thrones you might regret it in future. What if you never find a flower that you want? Maybe it's, the one flower that you need, the one flower that can make your garden filled with love, happiness and most importantly light in your dark world" She said smiling slightly. I was still looking at the flower. Maybe she's right. Maybe I should just give it a chance.

"Chalein?" she said and I nodded. We went to Mandir first then dropped her at Noor and then I went to the warehouse.

I reached after 15 minutes. I picked up my phone and got out of the car. The guards bowed down. Adi was already inside. I went inside and ordered the guards to leave.

Adi was sitting on a chair I went near him and sat beside him.

"Who?" I asked sternly.

"Vikram Khurana," He said and My jaw clenched. I can feel a fire inside me. The same man who destroyed my life. The same man who's responsible for my misery.

"Where was he?" I asked

"He went to Australia after that incident and changed his name and everything" he said giving me some papers.

"Where is he?" I asked looking at the papers.

"We don't know, Nikhil is working on that," He said patting my shoulder, I nodded.

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"let's kill some, you'll feel good," he said and we went inside a room.

"He stole your papers from your drawer, He said nonsense to Aniket, and that one tried to hack into your system," he said pointing at three men. I looked at them, they were already terrified.

"You won't kill?" I asked Adi with a frown.

"what made you think I'll wait for you, I'm done already," he said with an evil smile.

That's why this bastard is my fucking best friend.

"What should I do with you?" I asked the first man holding his jaw.

"S...so...Sorry sir" he said

"These are the hands, right? How dare you to open my drawer?" I said throwing him on the ground.

"Exactly, I'm his best friend only I can do that you fucker" Adi said and forwarded me my knife.

"What's his name, Adi?" I asked Adi looking at that man.

"Amar," he said.

I wrote Amar in his hands with my knife. He is shivering and hissing in pain.

"ABHIRAJ RATHORE has no place for KINDNESS in his heart and especially for the people who cross him," I said and

I stabbed the knife in his neck and he screamed. His blood was all around my hand. I walked towards the next Man.

"You know I don't care if I'll go to hell, but no words against ANIKET RAGHUBANSHI, you did wrong, tell me how should I treat you?" I asked leaning on the table.

"bring the acid" I ordered Adi, he passed me acid.

I opened the rope that was tied in his hands.

"all over your body," I said in my cold voice and he took the bottle from my hands.

He was trembling, he poured some acid into his hands and started screaming.

"FAST" I shouted.

He poured it all over his body, the room was filled with his screams. I took out My gun and shot him in his heart.

The last man was already crying looking at everything. I shot him in his head and legs.

"I was expecting a better way brother," Adi said

"I'm not here to fulfil your fucking expectations," I said and he shook his head.

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I cleaned my body changed my clothes and went to my penthouse with Adi, I needed to tell him everything that happened in the morning. We reached after 25 minutes. We went inside and sat on the couch.

" I need to tell you something," I said, Damn my heart will explode.

He raised his eyebrows looking at me suspiciously.

I told him everything in one breath.

"WHAT THE FUCK" he shouted.

Damn, my ears. he started at me for 3 minutes, yes I'm looking at the time.

"Will you say something?" I questioned

"You don't want to marry me?" he said with a pout.

I'll kill this human.

"WHAT, ADI NOT NOW PLEASE I AM SERIOUS," I said punching him in his chest.

"Aaaahhhh" he screamed in pain.

"Fucker" he gritted his teeth.

I gave him a 'told you' look.

"You want me to come with you?" he asked.

I looked at him gritting my teeth.

"Adi, I..." he interrupted "Fine fine, I'll come, my love," he said jumping from the couch.

"I'm in my room, do whatever you want but don't disturb me" I said pointing my finger towards him.

"You are not going home?" he asked

"I don't want to," I said and went inside my room.

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